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I sell love. Yes, that is my job. I am a masseuse. I make both genders happy. I make people fall in love left and right; more and more women are enjoying sex and becoming in touch with themselves thanks to me. I train men and women to make each other complete. Tonight I met an awesome man- the greatest man ever that inspired me to take down these thoughts. All evening all he ever did was to talk about his woman. He spoke about her with passion, admiration and respect. She was a massage girl with little education, but in his words, an amazing woman. She went through a lot to support her family who was in debt with a loan shark. She worked her ass off for 10 years just to pay the interest for a debt that she didn’t cause. Again, “she is an awesome woman, the best business partner”, and he loves her to death. Their sex is great; she had been an inexperienced woman with occasional sex here and there before they were together. She hated men since she was abused physically when she was a child. She was beaten by both gambling parents; massages for her are just therapies. She is used to deep-tissue, hard-core, rough touching which even her boyfriend doesn’t have the strength to satisfy her. They have good sex, and he is a man in every sense since he can make her come after a year of exploring sex together with her, but deep down he knows she can be so much better- she deserves better. He goes on dates just to learn about other women to help her. They are completely honest with each other. She doesn’t get jealous and trusts him in each and every possible way. They have a perfect relationship! They are getting married soon, but he has seen so many women that are comfortable with their body and know exactly what to do to make themselves climax. He has persuaded her to see a psychologist to fix her sensitivity issue. He is now resorting to me; he is willing to pay and to learn whatever it takes to make her fully and sexually mature for her own sake. I was crying. She is so lucky and he is such an adorable man. They are fortunate to have found each other. In my job, I cannot fall in love, and not one but many times I havea cried since I don’t think I can ever be loved the way he loves her. In order to do my job well, I need to sell my love and spread that love to different people and hopefully heal them. I treat every client be it men or women as a partner. I have to put myself in a man’s and woman’s shoes to feel their body and show them how a sensual and extremely aroused person should feel when their entire body has opened up. I at first cried due to jealousy then marveled at their love for each other- so great and so deep with full of trust and respect for each other. He kept saying she was incredible and magnificent. I related to myself; I had a rough childhood and what she had been through was no where compared with what I had. My memory did an excellent job of suppressing my sad memories. They are just waiting for someone to mention similar experience to burst. I have stopped telling my dates or my recent boyfriends about how I grew up so people won’t take pity on me. I put on a brave face every time something happens to me. After each session I am usually very horny but I shouldn’t do anything about it or cannot release it in a sexual partner. I need to keep my horniness going. If you don’t have sensuality, you cannot bring it out in other people. I believe everyone has it but people were brought up to be tough and insensitive so that they won’t get hurt. Also money, work, stress kind of kills our desire to find out who we are and how far we can push our body. She will be a milestone in my job. She will be the first woman ever that receives a full Sheila’s Approach and kissing session. I have always enjoy women’s body although I am straight. When I make couples sexually and emotionally pleased, my sin won’t become so grave on Judgement Day. (29/04/2016)